The "re-boot"

After loosing my job after only 8 weeks of being there, I continually ask myself, "Why did HE allow me to have it in the first place?" Actually many people have wondered this on my behalf too. So I've been scratching my head a lot. Trying to learn what must be a lesson, somewhere in this.

I looked at how busy my life had become before working. Running here and there, doing this and that. Often I found that my Bible was closed more often than open. Then came the job (my quail if you will) I thought I was busy before! But yet I could feel and see Him everyday through my busyness and exhaustion. Now though, my Bible was zipped shut to keep the dust out. I was starving and I knew it!

Then the day happened. The pain of being fired was unbearable. I was completely broken. The next day I found myself with nothing to do. Often I joke about my life simply being "re-booted" like you would re-boot a computer. A fresh start lay ahead of me with nothing but time to figure it out.

In my quietness I resisted God. I didn't read or pray, but yet I could feel Him carry me. To where, I really didn't care.

He has been speaking to me lately. At first He would continually whisper, "Be still." Now He has placed me in the green pasture to rest beside the quiet waters. Just the two of us. Just me and Jesus! He has been wooing me, speaking and calling me to draw closer to Him. This is what He is saying, "O how I delight in you! For no other reason than because of the love we share. Nestle in close and let me minister to your hurt and pain. Listen closely as I whisper songs of my love and of rejoicing in you. Allow my words to become your calm and healing."

That time at work had nothing to do with me! It as all about Him! He needed my attention, desired my devotion to Him and wanted to spend time with me. He had been calling and I wasn't answering! His plan worked because here I sit. Just relaxing in His arms, listing to His singing, feeling His love bring my heart healing and comfort.

My response to Him: O how you do indeed satisfy me as with the richest of foods! There is nothing more that I want. Nothing more that I need. I will praise you all day long from the depths of my soul. You are all that I need.

I have been "re-booted" and I am so glad!